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THE PORTRAIT. 247
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mind bud-simp j and licity infinite worshi superiorit ppers Mrs y . . Mart By tlie yn fraternity was eyed of askance gentle ; rose they - neither she learned
pedantic cpuld not ; they affirm therefore \ her to merel be a y wondered fool , how was an otherwise sensible second nor
person I and heartil a third coul and d visit be gratefull passed so extremel y , assented and y then foolish . an The overture on proposal some was points was made that . , A to I should whichy
return to London with Mrs . Martyn in the capacity of an amanuensis . I : was once more busy preparing to leave homeonce more on the
, point first visit of going to that to world London where . Nearl I had y two expected years to had see elapsed much I since did not my
seebut whereon the contrary , I had witnessed and experienced what , I had not , expected , and whence I had not returned , as . trials
our heroines in novels are made to do , purified and tried by provide and ' sufferings d as a innumerable matter of course , to rest with for a the husb remainder and . -Alas of , no ni ! y I days had ,
still again merel to go forth on the , and threshold with the of life feeling and strong must * expect upon me both that to I suffer ; was
and endure y . But I was full of hope , ; and cheerful in the knowledge that this time I had a veritable employment ) and a wise employer ,
a far different companion from the one of my former j ourney . p Naturall sharp hrase illness be y , too to had , see I hoped broug persons ht to me and hear to things in my London senses in a , of less if the Mr exaggerated . meanin Cleveland enabled g of . li that g M ht to y ,
and view matters in general calmly . This I now was dobut I craved to have the conduct of my artist friend explained , to , have the cloud removed that seemed to darken his actions , and
thenif I could perfectly exonerate him , I should be quite happy . So I , reasoned . I believed in the fact of mortals being " quite
which h one appy by , " in one and our grim I younger smile time as years exposes I writ we e , when and are p dashes I leasantl rememb them y er deluded the to p fallacies , ieces and . how b It y
seems like a paradox , but to be _" quite happy" would simply be mean a doubtful to be * unhappy sort of : happ to hav iness e . nothing We d conrp to be wish lain left of for behind our or desire ifs and would huts le ;
take them away , and see what woul . Strugg , effort , is life and _hajapiness such as befits humanity ; passiveness and negation should be called endurancebut not happiness .
Wellnever mind ; I was deceived then , about the meaning of the word happ , iness , as about various other words , and now I need not
discuss the question . '<¦ Another element of satisfaction in my new prospects was the con- <
sciousness that my position in the household of Mrs . Martyn would be definedI should be there not as an idle hanger-onbut as a necessary
. , supplement to that lady , in the shape of a mechanical right hand . My iven in return
services and this were also stated was to , and my so liking was ; the therefore equivale with nt to a be lig g ht heart I made ;
ready to depart , leaving without regret my pupils to admire and to
The Portrait. 247
THE PORTRAIT . 247
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English Woman’s Journal (1858-1864), June 1, 1861, page 247, in the Nineteenth-Century Serials Edition (2008; 2018) ncse.ac.uk/periodicals/ewj/issues/ewj_01061861/page/31/
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