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be ledge instructed him that for would in the avail thing things me even now belong . to ing I be had led to looke my towards rest d to ; my Heaven I had husband leaned : and to
when upon he was taken every from , me my soul rebelled . I arraigned the counsels of the Most Highand said " God has forgotten to be
sea gracious —boundless . " Above fathomless , around , , beyond lored me — , all on seemed -which I lik -was e a east dim alone wide _.
, , unexp like Even a the sunbeam child , who to all with others his within face of the beauty house and woke winning -no joy ways or hope was
, in his mother ' s breast . A terrible gnawing * dread possessed me that I should lose him alsoand still be lefb alive . Had I beeii
, certain she bore , as with I told such my aunt unutterable in one of pit those y and fits forbearanc of moody e despondency , that if the felt
reassured baby died , I and should permitted expire myself at the to same love moment him . , I I would dared not have do so
change now "Weeks , I . said I lengthened was bitterl still y , fretful lest into he months , too questioning die . without , rep witnessing ining ; indifferent any essential to all
that interested others ; imagining no one had ever been tried so our severel nei y g as hbouring myself . friends I resented and cousins as unfeeling to induc the e kindl me , y as attemp the winter ts of
¦ wore away , to come forth a little from my strict seclusion ; while others who came and talked about charitable societies , and makingclothes for the and teaching little childrenwent away chilled
the by my grief listlessness -worn poor and , and , heavy wondering -hearted that in general pursuits find like , a these solace , in , for which me
had no attraction . After these visits I used to chafe for hours at some well-meant but trite remark on the necessity for self-exertion ,
and the many happy years life had yet in store for me , with youth and health to enjoy them : whereas in my utter weariness of spirit
such considerations only served to remind me of the long term of suffering I might still drag on , and rendered me . additionally
wretched . Any person less experienced in the human heart , less fall of
sympathy than my aunt , would have found it impossible to bear with meAs it was I tasked her sorely ; but her charity never
. failed . She was content to bide her time , never doubting of the resultwhich like all her other cares , she committed to a higher
, guidance There came than her one own evening - when we were together in the pleasant
sitting-room I have already described . The day had been one of more than usual depressionthe smiles and endearments of my
, child only moving me to deeper melancholy ; my aunt ' s affectionate solicitude meeting a complaining response ; even the expressions of
piety , earnest and unaffected , that from her lips I generally listened to with reverenceprovoking an irritable rejoinder .
Oh , I was sad— , I was very sad !—otherwise I should have been _,
without excuse !
828 Eight Or Wilongl
828 EIGHT OR WilONGL
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English Woman’s Journal (1858-1864), July 1, 1859, page 328, in the Nineteenth-Century Serials Edition (2008; 2018) ncse.ac.uk/periodicals/ewj/issues/ewj_01071859/page/40/
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